That backdrop though.
Imma start writing my thoughts here because seems like these days when i open my mouth people seem to take what i say for granted. Granted that most of the things i say mostly comes from my heart. Punctuation will be off so starting this if you notice grammatical or punctuational errors grammar ***** shhh.. moving forward here, I woke up today looking for the usual bugs that seem to keep my up at night as i once did when i was a kid. I would remember staying up almost all night looking for this one or many mosquitoes that whispered in my ear every night. Today they weren’t misquoting they were crawling. Yes I live in a lodge with a transitioning 30 people, 4 of which , live in my room (the largest one) 3 bunk beds. I’m at the top one to the left. Above me i have a poster of one of my favorite photos that i shot on film: Wave Study 2, I wanted to shoot a series of waves for a project (like many that fall through) this particular poster though was printed at the Los Angeles Public Library in the Octavia Lab. Ill bring that place up another thyme.
As I’m typing here before work i always give myself enough thyme to wake up and observe my surroundings meaning my bed space, the smell, the sounds in the hallway e.t.c and start my day. I like Mondays because It discretely displines me to be positive because that will determine how my week will go. I may veer off many thymes to explain things that hit my mind at the moment so bear with me, I went to Ralphs across the street to get my usual Yerba Mate Revel Berry and I couldn’t notice the contrail in the sky which i took a photo of. I have a habit of that. If you’ve seen me or been around me enough you know at a random moment I would step out of the environment and step into my own to capture my personal ecosystem to remember and study for later. Back to the contrail it amazed me because the spacing in between the plume was waiting for me to study, as i walked out of Ralphs I looked up and saw the palm trees with the same contrail as a backdrop for ther palm tree i walked passed it and my subconscious said nope you are gonna take that photo ( my subconscious is never wrong) now to the present moment time for me to get ready for my bike ride to the train to get to work. Imma check back in when i get there or on my lunch!
So we are back, back at the house where once i reach my room it starts smelling like, well i dont want to start to describe how bad it was, next i, well let me get to the entry to the mansion. There is a podcast named DID which i forget what it means but they are doing an episode on a Hot Ones taste challenge and i happened to come through the room next to the, wait, when you enter the space to your left is the “study room” where me and others remain quite in their own realm, moving forward I really by this point choose to not want to talk to anyone, because I’ve tried before. I dont want to vent on my first entry here but you will soon find out that the reason I’m not as comfortable in this place like i used to is because of i guess the energy, an energy we will talk about another thyme. Where was i? oh yes back at the house and i pass the live stream of the episode and head upstairs as soon as i open the door the smell hits me right in my face, the funny thing is that im so used to it already so i walk in, im lucky because this thyme the light is on so i can actually see what im doing. SAometimes my anxiety causes me to keep the light off and move in the dark. The first thing i do is park Nightshade in her corner. It’s a new spot cuz i dont want to keep bothering ******** when he wakes up. I guess at thymes i try to be considerate. Next i go and look 10’o clock to the poster that’s on the wall to my left when i lay down. It was a poster that ***** gave to me and told me “ Something told me to give this to you” to then look at that and see if there are any critters crawling on the wall, yesterday day there was one and that put me into a frenzy to where i had to search my whole laying space. Next I prep to take my shower. Now that I did that, we are all caught up. In my head im thinking: should I call it a night or go to R to grab a potato salad again and leave my half spicy fried chicken wrap for tomorrows (leg itch) 10 min. Will it survive the fridge, my bag in the heat for 20 min then in the fridge at work to then be eatten 4 hours later? I might eat it before i go to work. I guess I’ll go to R and grab my usual potato salad again. Btw im listening to Gassius, in inspo of mine for a whole now in the visual arts dept. here’s the link for that so you can check out the mix for yourself : https://www.nts.live/shows/totem/episodes/totem-11th-november-2024 an old episode but his choice in the mood in music inspires in general. Imma head to R real quick and call it a night. I want to work on the ****************** a bit and head to bed. Breath from your nose! Oh **** i forgot! On my 10 i saw a senior outside my job in a cloth foldable chair and noticed that he was in a deep sleep, now you are thinking why bring all this up? Well for starters this was at around 14-15:00 outside where i work at with bling and all that yeah that’s cool but his hat stood out to me which said something about “Airborne” which then registered to be as interesting because he might have been or was part of a division at some point in his life and as he sat there and slept I was pondering on what he was dreaming about his age, where he would rather be if so or where he is. Deep Pile Dream…..
